5/31/10

I'm tired of being miserable. I don't feel mentally well at all. I'm worrying and taking things too seriously. I feel disgusting and I'm tired of that too. I want to fast forward to where I can be happy, because I know. . I know. That when I'm free I'll be happy. I'll get therapy. I'll have a job. I won't be miserable anymore. Things won't be fucked up anymore. I just. . need that. So bad. I'll look back on everything I'm writing and it'll just sound like a crazy person because every time I write in this blog it's to let something out that I'm holding in, that I can't hold in anymore. And I could totally just delete this blog and forget about everything that's happening and make it go away.