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“The strongest have their moments of fatigue”





“Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If we were to go through our life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Give every opportunity a chance, leave no room for regrets.”

“Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength.”


Come on, Lance. You can do this. Look at things differently. You'll be free soon. Someone'll find you. . . someone'll read all of this. People will help you get out of this. Time will pass. It's passing now. You'll find out why you were put here, and what you have to do. You'll be able to do that, and so much more. You'll be free, and no one could ever take that away from you. You won't be trapped anymore. You won't ever have to look at this house again. You'll be far away. You'll see something new every day. Not just the bus ride to school and back. You'll be free. . . just hold on. Come on. You can do this. You have been all your life. Ever since the screaming when you were four years old at 11 at night about whether you should get extra blankets or not. You have to be strong for everyone who loves you. Just believe, and don't give in to hopeless dreaming. Live in the moment. . you have to. All your dreams will come true one day. . there's no doubt about that. But in order to make them come true, you have to keep trying. Every day, you have to try. Don't fall into the hole like she did. . . it'll only make you crazy, like her. Keep your head up. . . face everything life is throwing at you, and see the beauty in it. See beyond, and keep the future in mind, but don't live in the future. Be strong. Please, God. Help me be strong. At least through the next couple weeks. No more screaming. . no more crying. Please, God. Please, God. Help good things to happen. Help me heal. . show me how beautiful I am. My soul. . . my body. . . my heart. . . my dreams. . . my love. . . my thoughts. Don't let me hear what she's saying. Do what's best for me. . I don't know what I want anymore. I don't know what's good anymore. My will belongs to You. Set me free. . . help me be all You made me to be. Please. Give me a home. I want a home to come back to. . someplace that's my own. Help me get a car. Help me get away from them, and heal them. I want to run away. I want to fall into someone's arms and be safe there for the rest of time. . . but I want to live in reality. I want love. I want peace and I need Your grace. I need to be free, and I need love. Please, God. I know You can hear me. All the angels. Help. . please. I don't love them. I don't want them. I don't need them. They're hopeless, and I can't take care of them anymore. I can't clean up the messes she makes and then get screamed at. Please, God. Help someone find me.

Our Father, who art in Heaven,
Hallowed by Thy name;
Thy Kingdom come,
Thy Will be done
On Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day
Our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.

Hail Mary, Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
And blessed is the fruit of Thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of death. Amen.

Our Father, who art in Heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name;
Thy Kingdom come,
Thy will be done,
On Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But Deliver Us From Evil. Amen.

Hail mary, full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
Pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Our Father, Who art in Heaven,
Hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come, Thy Will be done,
On earth as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us
And lead us not into temptation
But deliver us from evil.
Amen.

Hail Mary, Full of Grace, The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women, and Blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, Pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death,
Amen.

Hail Mary, Full of Grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women
And blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, Pray for us sinners
Now and at the hour of our death. Amen.


Please, God.