Sunday, June 6, 2010
6/6/10
It's so funny how they think they have control over me. . soooo funny!!! Just knowing how bad I'm gonna fuck them over when I leave is payback enough. . how she's gonna get even more depressed than she already is, if that's possible. She'll get so angry and end up killing herself. . works for me. I'll be in cali!! I just have to keep playing their little game. . making the cogs of their twisted clockwork turn. . just keep putting water in the icemaker. Thinking about it, this is kind of like having someone pressing a gun to your head for years. After a while, everything's so cool, and calm, and you're floating. But that day when I leave. . that beautiful, beautiful day. . I'm just gonna drive away. When I know I have enough money to survive, at that moment, I'm leaving. Leaving all the evil behind me, going out on my own to find the things that are beautiful. I am so gone. And, I'm winning right now. Because right now, minutes are going by. Gone. Over. And no matter what the fuck they do, they can't control time. That's the beautiful thing about it. Time is free.
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please reach out for help...childrens services can help you and pay for college sometimes
ReplyDeleteI have. . they didn't do anything because there was no physical abuse. . the whole guidance dept. knows but they're afraid of being sued by my parents. . I told all my friends and neighbors and they're helping me however they can. At this point, just one more year and I'll be ok. . focusing on scrapin up whatever $ I can to be able to stand on my own feet and never have to look at them again.
ReplyDeletewhat state do you live in? do you have yahoo messenger? I really would like to try to help you somehow?
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