About to start a new week. Staying strong. Got some laundry done today while they were gone. Posted tons of messages on youtube asking people to watch my videos and help. Totally disoriented right now. When I look at the big picture, I feel like I'm not going anywhere. There's now - hell. And there's the future - way better. When I live in the moment, I live in hell. When I imagine the future, once I open my eyes (I have to sooner or later) all I see is hell. I can't wait until summer. . at least then it'll be warm. Praying that someone finds me who can help. No screaming so far today, but she keeps stopping outside the door and listening. She's probably going to come in tonight. God'll protect me.
Our Father, who art in heaven,
Hallowed be Thy name;
Thy Kingdom come,
Thy will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
Amen.
I had emotional abusive parents too. But I had luck and could get help from social workers etc and I don't life there anymore.
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to say that I will pray for you and really hope that things will change for better and that you will get the help you're needing.
Thanks Sophie :)
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